Claiming my God-set identity

It's time. Since I began my epic journey with Christ I have been struggling with the biggest question of all...who am I? After very much prayer (years) and meditation I am finally going to claim the identity I now know that God has set in me and own it! I am a musician! I may not get paid to do what I love to do, I may not have any of the fancy credentials in this world, and I certainly do not have the recognition this world may offer. All that aside, I do have my Creator God whispering to me His name for me...Rhythm...Beauty. This is all the validation and "credentials" I need.

Currently this is my prayer. If anyone wishes to join me in this, by all means.

"Father God, I want nothing more right now than to be all that You have created me to be. I know that You have set music in me, deep in my soul. I do indeed have a love and passion for music. I love every opportunity I get to perform with the Southshore Concert Band. Now Lord, I surrender this to you, if You indeed intended for me to be Your musician fully and completely while in this world, then I know that only You can arrange for that. I see this vision in me Lord, a vision of learning to play the bassoon or even the contra-bassoon and one day becoming part of a symphony orchestra and thus getting paid to do the very thing I love to do...the thing You set in me to do. Lord, You know I do not have a bassoon or contra-bassoon and cannot afford to get one on my own. So I surrender this to You, that if this vision does indeed come from You then only You can arrange for it to happen. Lord, you know the job I hold now is only temporary. If it be Your will Lord that I become a full and complete musician, getting paid to do what I love to do, then I know You will arrange for it to happen in Your timing Father God. I'm completely Yours Father God. Do with me what You will. I trust You fully. I pray this in the most precious and powerful name of my Lord and Savior, and my Best Friend, Jesus Christ. Amen."

How do they do it?

I'm passionate about music and enjoy all kinds of music.  One group I enjoy is Celtic Woman.  I've always been fascinated with Celtic history and music especially since I performed with the Kilties Sr. drum & bugle corps in 2001 and 2003.  I saw the latest YouTube video of the Celtic Woman ladies and in it they say that they do read all of their tweets and posts on Facebook.  This puzzles me actually.  Going from my experience as a musical performer, especially in tour (drum corps), when would one have time to read thousands of tweets and posts?  I know what it take to prepare for a performance, and it does eat up very much time.  A daily agenda can be filled with much time in practice / rehearsal, then getting ready for the show, perform the show, then loading up/packing up and heading to the next town.  At least in my experience, the road time was usually at night so us members usually were getting some sleep while on the road.  I suppose you could read tweets and such while on the road.  Still, with thousands and thousands of tweets and Facebook posts...how can all of them be read, let alone replied to???

No, I'm not dead LOL

I've just been rather busy with work and raising a toddler that having time to myself is rare.  Here's an update, I  have withdrawn from the Nursing program at Lake Michigan College and have returned to work at Bosch as a temp.  I don't know how long I'll be at Bosch, but at least it's a paycheck and it buys me more time to find another job.  What I'd really want to do is learn to play the cello and then play with an orchestra.  I've had plenty of experience with wind and percussion instruments, the string family is one I've not had the pleasure of experiencing.  Plus, music is the one form of Beauty that I am most passionate about, so why can't I get paid to do the thing I love to do?  I doubt I will ever get to play cello, but who knows.

Oh well, back to work.

and the adventure continues

Well it certainly has been a long time since my last post here.  I have been rather busy with homework and study, not to mention being a father.  The semster is coming to an end.  There are only 5 more weeks with the 5th week being for finals.  So far in all my classes I am receiving an A.  I have certainly worked hard.  I'm already registered for the next semster taking 2 classes:  Human Physiology and Nutrition/Diet Therapy.  Physiology is the study of the function of human anatomy and I'm really excited and looking forward to it.  I'm currently in Human Anatomy and am simply in awe at this work of art by our God called the human being.  Also this spring I'm hoping to have the funds available to take a 6 week CNA training program offerd by LMC.  This will prepare me for the state exam so I can earn the certification and get a job as a CNA.  I'm thinking I will most likely be working at a nursing home/long-term care facility.  I may even work third shift so I can continue attending school.  We'll see.

Please pray for my family and I as we continue on this wild and crazy adventure together.

What a ride!

Wow...it has been such a loooooooooong time since I've posted here.  Too long perhaps.  My life has been a whirlwind of taking steps and emotions too much to write down here.  I'll just say it has confirmed what I've heard said before, and this is anything worth doing is going to be hard.

My semester back a college has so far proven to be a challenge, but worth it.  I do have to devout much time for homework and study.  It has all been worth it as my grades reflect it.

Something that Jesus spoke that is written in Matthew 6 has really captured my attention recently and now I hold to heart passionately.  He said not to worry about anything because our Father in Heaven will take care of us.  He knows what we need and when we need it.  All I need to do is seek Him first.

And now, back to study.

LIfe can be real scary

Well...I've been laid off since the end of September and while I have been searching for jobs and applying for them, I still haven't a new job.  I am going back to college to pursue a Nursing degree so I can become an RN, but still have bills to pay.  I do not know what will happen next, and it scares me.  The only comfort I have is knowing that God is always with me and will never leave me nor forsake me.  I trust God will take care of things, I just don't know how or when.  I can only take life one day at a time now.

Parenthood: The adventure is just beginning

Well parenthood is indeed an adventure.  You just never know what is going to happen next.  One day can be wonderful with amazing 'firsts' for the little one.  Another day can leave you exhausted and frustrated.  All in all, it is well worth it.  You just have to take the good with the bad.  I can't even imagine who and what my little princess will grow up into.